Today is the 1st day of Winter and the shortest day of the year.
No screen shots or stats cuz I haven't worn my bugg since Thursday.
Went well with my mom on Thursday night… whew… glad to get that out of the way. She understood and I apologized for letting it go so long. We did not get too “deep” so that helped too…
I learned on Thursday night that Debbie has Stage 3b Lung Cancer. She has a 10% chance of surviving the next 5 years and the average life expectancy with treatment is 13 months. Hard to fathom still... What do you do or say to someone facing that...
When I thought we were going on the cruise I took the 18th through the 25th off. I had forgotten to cancel the time off so I took last Friday off, I am working today and then I will be working Wednesday half day and then that is it.
I went and got blood work done on Friday. I got the results and everything looks pretty good. My Hba1c was 6.3 and it should be 6.0 so I am getting really close to “normal” readings which is fantastic. They will only improve once I start incorporating more exercise into my program. I also went to the senior center and submitted my application for using the pool/facilities. Technically you are supposed to be 50 years old but if you have a medical condition and are a resident you can also use it with proper approval. I should hear back in a week or two. I do have a 24hr Fitness membership and they do have a pool at various locations but I would feel less self conscious at the center because of my NLD and body image. Plus it is across the street from where I live. Can’t beat that eh?
Saturday I had my car serviced. I needed new front tires and an oil change. I had NO oil in my car. That is just crazy! I need to be more diligent about checking things like that. Could have been disastrous! Danielle and I went to Dick’s Open House and I drank copious amounts of red wine. I had a lovely time and it was warm enough to be able to sit on the patio so even better.
Sunday I was a little crunchy from all the vino so I did what every seasoned drinker does and got drunk again! I was on a mission... I was having a Bloody Mary and Dave showed up and confronted me. Without me having to say it, he has basically figured it out that it isn’t going to work with him coming to stay at my place. The timing is horrible but I guess any time you break off a long term (4 years) relationship it is hard to do. I feel like a mean, cruel person for ditching him right before Christmas and days before he gets out of the program. I was supposed to pick him up on Friday and Saturday but did not show up. He left 6 angry messages (which I saved) saying that it was bullsh*t what was happening and my priorities are screwed up. I have no way to contact him by phone to relay a message. He said he was worried about me but I have a hard time believing it. It was pretty awkward and upsetting to say the least. I continued drinking and got a ride home from one of our friends. Feel asleep but did get up for a little while and had a bite to eat and then crashed for the night. Feeling tired today but not woozy thank goodness.
I am supposed to see Dave tonight too - not sure how that will pan out but we shall see. It isn't going to be the last time I see him because I do have his car, some personal items and we do have a checking account together. It is completely separate from my personal banking.
I know this is a weight loss blog but it is also about ME so sorry that the post isn't more weight loss related. I have been doing okay on food. I missed a few meals over the weekend which is not good but I also imbibed quite a few calories too so we shall see...Until next time...