Tuesday, July 3, 2012

2 Years Later...

Had a relaxing yet productive evening. The facial was divine! She was a nice gal and we hit it off. There was a scheduling snafu but she remedied that with an extra treatment :-) After I got home I did some laundry and organizing and felt accomplished when my head hit the pillow.

Thanks for the feedback on getting botox. I feel the same way you do. I thought he was offering me a deal but when I mentioned it to Christina (esthetician) she said they do it too for the same price.  I have never had anyone tell me I look angry so that should have been my red flag right there. Actually, I get the opposite comment like "You are always smiling!" 

Sandy around 1985
Yesterday was the 2 year anniversary of learning that I had biological family. Within the first 6 months, I was able to meet everyone except for my oldest sibling, Fred who lives in Alaska. I was actually in Alaska that summer on a Cruise but he did not make the trip to see me. It was A LOT to absorb. Here were people that I didn't know that looked like me, talked like me and even had some mannerisms like me.  It was mind boggling.  Eventually I was able to process the facts and fit puzzles pieces together. What has taken me the longest to figure out is who I am. Like Kristi commented on the original post: This will help you understand who you are and where you fit in this world. It completely challenged my nature vs. nurture concept. I am Sandy (and Bruce's) offspring and I can't deny it. I have her skin tone, freckles, smile, hands, height and personality traits of hers. They are hard wired I guess. But, I am also Betty's and Ed's. They taught me what I know and instilled kindness, compassion and morals throughout my life. Since I was also changing weight wise and rediscovering myself it kinda through me for a loop for awhile but I am begining to make peace with all of it and truly learn to love who I am and who I will become as I continue to shed layers of myself physically and otherwise. Until next time..

4 comments:

  1. Having peace and loving yourself is such a reward. I don't know the whole story but am glad to hear that you are somewhat in a good place with YOU.....

    I hope that you enjoy your holiday....have fun but be safe....

    Take care

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  2. Learning to love yourself is essential to leading a happy life and that's exactly what you are doing. Finding a whole other family must have been life altering indeed. I am glad everything seemed to have worked our for you and your newfound siblings.

    Holiday for you in the States tomorrow, so enjoy !

    Ingrid

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  3. Wow, I can't believe its been two years already! I think you've done a great job in figuring out who you are and to stand on your own two feet. :D

    Hope you have a great 4th!!

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  4. I am really glad to hear that you have found peace with your newfound family ties. As an adoptive mom myself, I always wonder if I'm doing the right thing by my daughter, if she'll grow to resent me and wish for her life to be drastically different. It seems so much to put on such a little girl. All I really want is for her to be content with who she is and to be happy in her life. I know it's not the same situation AT ALL, but knowing that someone out there that went thru this came out the other end in a happy place gives me a bit of hope.

    Happy 4th to you! Thanks for sharing!

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