Wednesday, July 31, 2013

What Can I Say


What Can I Say by Brandy Carlisle
 
Look to the clock on the wall
Hands hardly moving at all
I can't stand the state that I'm in
Sometimes it feels like the wall's closing in

Oh, Lord, what can I say?
I'm so sad since you went away
Time, time, ticking on me
Alone is the last place I wanted to be
Lord, what can I say?

Trap all my troubles away
Drown my sorrow the same way
Seems no matter how hard I try
It seems like there's something just missing inside

Oh, Lord, what can I say?
I'm so sad since you went away
Time, time, ticking on me
Alone is the last place I wanted to be
Lord, what can I say?

Oh, Lord, what can I say?
How many rules can I break?
How many lies can I make?
How many roles must I turn
To find me a place where the bridge hasn't burned?

Oh, Lord, what can I say?
I'm so sad since you went away
Time, time, ticking on me
Alone is the last place I wanted to be

Oh, Lord, what can I say?
I'm so sad since you went away
Time, time, ticking on me
Alone is the last place I wanted to be
Lord, what can I say?
Oh, Lord, what can I say?
 
Music is very therapeutic to me. I just love the rawness in her voice.
 
May peace be with you,
 


Saturday, July 27, 2013

Final Goodbye ~ July 25, 2013

We had the funeral for Betty on Thursday, July 25th at 11:30 a.m. There was about 30 people in attendance which was just the right amount of people. It was a closed casket ceremony, however we did have a private viewing (Bob and I) and we actually wrote letters to her and placed them in a drawer in the casket.
 
I spoke at the service but Bob did not. He and my mom did not speak at my dad's service but I felt compelled in both cases. Here is a synopsis of what I said:
 
When we were growing up we didn't really hug or say we loved each other but all the cards we exchanged had the same sentiment ~ that we loved each other but never said it. After my dad passed in 1999, we started saying it to each other every time we talked. So out of a tragic event came a positive.
 
My mom had a great sense of humor. Even towards the end she gave me zingers like "Oh you look familiar" when I know she knew who I was. Well on of the other stinky things she did was there are years of photos that she never organized and told me that Bob and I could deal with them after she passed. The other thing was some Hummel figurines that her mother collected and she never really liked them so she said you can deal with them when I am gone.
 
This is a collage I put together of her life. I got the frame on sale at Kohl's and it held 27 pictures. I got a lot of compliments on it. In fact one of my neighbors said I should start a side business doing them...
 
 
This is a gorgeous plant that the neighbors bought. This pic does not do it justice.  My mom lived in the house for 44 years. Some of them have known me since I was 3 years old!



These are from a dear, sweet man I met through D. He is 84 himself. He told me he would keep me and my mothers soul in his prayers until the day he dies.


Peace be with you,



Friday, July 26, 2013

The Prayer

 
 
"The Prayer"
 
I pray you'll be our eyes
And watch us where we go
And help us to be wise
In times when we don't know
 
Let this be our prayer
As we go our way
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace
To a place where we'll be safe
 
I pray we'll find your light
And hold it in our hearts
When stars go out each night
Remind us where you are
 
Let this be our prayer
When shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
 
We ask that life be kind
And watch us from above
We hope each soul will find
Another soul to love
 
Let this be our prayer
Just like every child
Needs to find a place
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
 
Need to find a place
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe


This song gives me comfort and I played it at the service yesterday

 

Thursday, July 18, 2013

Goodbye Momma

My mother passed away this morning at 5:14 a.m. I am doing okay but obviously in shock. I have a feeling I will be posting a lot more in the coming months. I will keep you all posted. May peace be with you