Friday, May 30, 2014

On the Horizon

Now that things have changed so much I have been trying to find my way. Everything I knew is now different. Good ways and bad.

It has hit me hard that my parents are gone and I am healing from the grief of that reality but it takes time. I can still go to counseling through Hospice.

In the meantime, I've been trying to take better care of myself. I put off going to a vajayjay appt forever... I'm talking WAY too long. 

I went to AZ to see my friend Kari. She reminds me that I'm a good person. We've known each other since 1st grade.
But on the way there I lost my wallet but I had a great time reconnecting. We are getting together in July in Vegas!

I've been doing some crafts which always makes me feel good. 

I have been bouncing the same few pounds around. Exercise has to become my priority now. I've got some BIG plans for this next year.

I'm also taking a few online courses including becoming a notary and Project Management. Knowledge is Power!

Until next time...

Thursday, May 29, 2014

Winding Road

Life has basically kicked my ass the last 10 months. We sold our family house after 44 years. Then I fell off my bike and ran out of time off at work. 

In the meantime, I've been dealing with braking things off with Dave! Yes, you read that right for my long time readers.

Dave came back to live with me last Feb. (2013) I had kept in touch with him the whole time he was gone and really thought he had made some changes.  At first things were different but after awhile, he started to revert back to his old ways. I really should have made the break then but my attention was focused on my mom. To give you an example, about 3 weeks prior to her death, he drove my car drunk and smashed the glass in the dashboard with his fist. Then I was finding bottles of whiskey in my cupboards and drawers. I'm all for getting a buzz but not to THAT degree.

I gave it all I had to make it work but I couldn't live that life anymore. I waited until this February and told him he had to move but it didn't happen until a few weeks ago. 

I'm actually enjoying the peace and quiet. I do miss him but I know good things are in store for me.

Until next time...