Monday, April 27, 2015

Finally Went!

I finally went to the gym last Tuesday. I survived. I honestly was about to cry when I was checking in but I managed to keep my cool. I did 25 minutes on the treadmill. What I now need to do is have them show me the equipment and weight area. I am still considering doing Personal Training. My preference is someone who has had a weight struggle at one point in their lifetime. I feel like they can identify more with what your dealing with.

Counseling seems to be helping. The book The Grief Recovery Handbook is really helping. It's work but I think it is time well spent. Honestly, I think we need to incorporate this kind of coping tool in our youth's curriculum. There are all different types of loss and I think it would make such a difference if we knew some coping tools in advance. Divorce, Loss of job, broken friendships, its all grief.

My brother, his wife and their two Biewer Yorkshire Terriers are coming for a visit in two weeks. This is a sample pic of what they look like. They have more of a black and white coloring to them.

 Poor Bogey. It will only be for a few days but three dogs and one ditty is not fair.

Eating has been bad. I am hovering at 240. Today is a new day and a new opportunity for changed behavior.

Until next time...


Friday, April 10, 2015

239 and I'll be Fine

I have not been below 240 in at least 10 years. I am 239 which is teetering but I will take it! My eating has been only okay but I have increased my activity chasing after the little lunatic Sophie!  She is so fun and so cute but she is a puppy and I have to watch her every move. She is a sneaky little bugger.

One thing I decided to do to help heal from some of life's challenges I've faced the last few years (and prior) is to start counseling. Part of my issue is grief and it helps to have an ear that knows how to help cope with the losses. Loss of loved ones, career, friends, broken relationships - its all grieving. She recommended a book called The Grief Recovery Handbook by John James and Frank Cherry.  The description is:

Newly updated and expanded to commemorate its twentieth anniversary—this classic resource helps people complete the grieving process and move toward recovery and happiness.
Incomplete recovery from grief can have a lifelong negative effect on the capacity for happiness. Drawing from their own histories as well as from others', the authors illustrate how it is possible to recover from grief and regain energy and spontaneity. Based on a proven program, The Grief Recovery Handbook offers grievers the specific actions needed to move beyond loss. New material in this edition includes guidance for dealing with:

Loss of faith
Loss of career and financial issues
Loss of health
Growing up in an alcoholic or dysfunctional home

The older generations in my experience are of the "Buck up and Deal" camp but I don't think that is the healthiest way to deal with it. Loss is a part of life and wouldn't it be better if we had the tools to help us cope?

My dad passed away 16 years ago on Sunday, April 12th. I miss him dearly but I know that he is watching over me and wants to me lead a healthy and happy life.

Until next time...