Monday, December 14, 2009

I'm not leaving!

A few of you left comments that I was going to be gone for a month but I am not going anywhere!! What I said was I would not have Internet at home for another month so I would not be able to post on the weekends but I am not leaving any time soon!

I did not wear my bodybugg over the weekend but I do have it on now. Made it through the weekend fairly unscathed. I was supposed to pick Dave up Friday but I was too tired and was in bed by 9:00 p.m. Saturday was the Christmas party. I picked Dave up and we went to Target. I ended up spending the whole gift card and mostly on me! I finally bought new chonies!! It feels so much better to wear panties that fit let me tell you. I also bought some new makeup and the newest book by Mitch Albom called Have a little Faith. Have any of you read it? I have heard it is really good. Anyways, I went to the party and had a good time. I did take some pictures but blogger is not cooperating and I can't upload them. I did well on food and I did not drink so that saved a lot of calories. I did a little dancing and I was home by 10:30 p.m. or so. Yesterday I was a slug all day.

I am still struggling on the emotional front. I am still trying to fake it but it is emotionally draining to do that too. Still have not seen my mom. It was 23rd of last month the last time I saw her so about 3 weeks which is a long time for us. I know that I am agonizing over nothing about meeting up with her and I know I will feel better once I see her but in the meantime... Dave will be done with his program on 12/23. I was hoping he could stay at his moms house for a month so I could have the place to myself for a little while but it looks like the sale is going to go through and he will have to be out by the end of January. He does not want to stay there and I don't blame him at all. It would be way too depressing for me. He will be getting 1/5th of the sale of the house so he will be able to contribute to rent and bills. That has been one of the major issues we have had in our relationship. All I am asking for is 1/2 of all the bills and I don't think it unreasonable. I really think Dave has changed and just hope and pray that it a permanent change.

I have rambled enough for today so until next time...


  1. *HUGS* I hope it's a permanent change too! Sorry things are so tough right now!

  2. Yipee I am pleased its only the internet at home...but then you told me so I knew this hey!!!! hehe

    Why you not wearing the bugg over the weekend, is it annoying and in the way?? Or are you not wanting to see what it says??

    My mom always told me * a leopard never changes its spots* but I always believe people can change...I have a daughter who struggled with substance and has turn her life yes it can happen...

  3. Sorry things are so blah. Hopefully they will turn around for the better. Looks like you had fun at Target!! Love that store.

  4. I hope he has changed to. i belive in change. :)

  5. I hope it is a permanent change, Katie. Glad to hear you're not going anywhere!

  6. People can change, but sometimes you have to hold them to their changes. Hope it works out for the two of you.

    Regarding your mom, what is it that makes you not want to see her? Is she just needing too much from you whenever you see her? Sorry you are so conflicted over that relationship.

  7. I am glad your not going anywhere! you are the best cheerleader.

    And keep faking it you are doing great!

  8. Hang in there. I hope your rough patch comes to an end.

    At some point, the faking stops and you become what you are behaving. Been there. Hugs.

  9. Blogging wouldn't have been the same without you!

    Doesn't new underwear feel like such a fabulous joy?

  10. You mentioned that you were having trouble uploading photos on blogger...Have you looked into windows live writer? You can download it for free and it makes blogging SO much easier!


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