Thursday, March 8, 2012

Stuffing Emotions


Source: Goal to get fit
 I debated about even posting today. I'm disgusted with myself and how I have been handling things lately. I did not go to the Personal Training appt. yesterday.  I should have never committed to that time because I knew it would not work for me but I had already flailed on him on Sunday. We did reschedule for next Wednesday at 5:15 p.m. which is a perfect time because I am just getting off of work and it is only 2.5 miles from work. 

Instead of doing something productive or positive with the extra time, I stuffed my pie hole. I knew what I was doing. It was self-sabotaging and demoralizing. With each bite I felt like I was sinking deeper and deeper. I actually did get on the scale this morning to add insult to injury and I am up about 5 lbs. Some of it is sodium but I have been eating quite a few extra calories so we shall see.

I generally try to look at the positive aspect of things and while this was very counter productive, I did learn from it. It did not make my problems/issues go away. It just made me feel bad. I don't need to take feeling bad and make it worse by stuffing myself. I just need to rise above this and forge ahead. 

10 comments:

  1. Not only everything you've written here Katie but YOU ARE WORTH MORE THAN A BINGE.

    It's time to get it together and snap out of it! Look at your own March goals and simply just do it.

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  2. Wow, Katie, that poster says it all.

    Maybe break the cycle tonight by not going straight home after work? Stop by the park and take a little walk first? Anything different. And just because you don't have the appointment until next Wednesday doesn't mean you can't go to the gym before that...

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  3. I absolutely LOVE that quote - thanks for sharing it. (And I may steal it)

    Don't be down on yourself, girl. Pick yourself up by the boot straps and let's go at it again toady.

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  4. It really is all in the thinking. Hope you get to feeling better soon.

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  5. Self-sabotage is the nemesis of most dieters. Try to figure out why you self-sabotage--habit, fear of being thin, not wanting to give up your food, fear of being excluded, not REALLY wanting things to change??? There is some reason, and if you identify it, it will be easier to avoid the next time. I have figured out that wanting to participate in activities with friends and family, mainly when eating in restaurants, is a big "self-sabotage" for me, because I have a fear of being excluded. I did it last weekend, and now I have another weekend ahead, and now I'm working on a strategy that will avoid breaking my diet and still allow me to be part of the social scene. Good luck to you.

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  6. I'm glad that you came on here and told us about your struggles. I know that helps me a lot too. Plus, you're not the only one with struggles like these sometimes. We've all been there.

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  7. We will fail ourselves sometimes. It's how we move forward after that that matters. You know this, and you can do it!!

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  8. You're worth this journey babe. Every day. I love you.

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  9. Oh darl'in! You can do this. Sometimes we need to mess up so we can reflect and move forward. Start forging sweetie:)

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  10. I fail all the time. You just got to keep on trying!

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