Monday, December 21, 2009

Change of Seasons

Today is the 1st day of Winter and the shortest day of the year.

No screen shots or stats cuz I haven't worn my bugg since Thursday.

Went well with my mom on Thursday night… whew… glad to get that out of the way. She understood and I apologized for letting it go so long. We did not get too “deep” so that helped too…

I learned on Thursday night that Debbie has Stage 3b Lung Cancer. She has a 10% chance of surviving the next 5 years and the average life expectancy with treatment is 13 months. Hard to fathom still... What do you do or say to someone facing that...

When I thought we were going on the cruise I took the 18th through the 25th off. I had forgotten to cancel the time off so I took last Friday off, I am working today and then I will be working Wednesday half day and then that is it.

I went and got blood work done on Friday. I got the results and everything looks pretty good. My Hba1c was 6.3 and it should be 6.0 so I am getting really close to “normal” readings which is fantastic. They will only improve once I start incorporating more exercise into my program. I also went to the senior center and submitted my application for using the pool/facilities. Technically you are supposed to be 50 years old but if you have a medical condition and are a resident you can also use it with proper approval. I should hear back in a week or two. I do have a 24hr Fitness membership and they do have a pool at various locations but I would feel less self conscious at the center because of my NLD and body image. Plus it is across the street from where I live. Can’t beat that eh?

Saturday I had my car serviced. I needed new front tires and an oil change. I had NO oil in my car. That is just crazy! I need to be more diligent about checking things like that. Could have been disastrous! Danielle and I went to Dick’s Open House and I drank copious amounts of red wine. I had a lovely time and it was warm enough to be able to sit on the patio so even better.

Sunday I was a little crunchy from all the vino so I did what every seasoned drinker does and got drunk again! I was on a mission... I was having a Bloody Mary and Dave showed up and confronted me. Without me having to say it, he has basically figured it out that it isn’t going to work with him coming to stay at my place. The timing is horrible but I guess any time you break off a long term (4 years) relationship it is hard to do. I feel like a mean, cruel person for ditching him right before Christmas and days before he gets out of the program. I was supposed to pick him up on Friday and Saturday but did not show up. He left 6 angry messages (which I saved) saying that it was bullsh*t what was happening and my priorities are screwed up. I have no way to contact him by phone to relay a message. He said he was worried about me but I have a hard time believing it. It was pretty awkward and upsetting to say the least. I continued drinking and got a ride home from one of our friends. Feel asleep but did get up for a little while and had a bite to eat and then crashed for the night. Feeling tired today but not woozy thank goodness.

I am supposed to see Dave tonight too - not sure how that will pan out but we shall see. It isn't going to be the last time I see him because I do have his car, some personal items and we do have a checking account together. It is completely separate from my personal banking.

I know this is a weight loss blog but it is also about ME so sorry that the post isn't more weight loss related. I have been doing okay on food. I missed a few meals over the weekend which is not good but I also imbibed quite a few calories too so we shall see...Until next time...


  1. Hi Katie,

    I'm not sure who Debbie is, but I'm so sorry to hear of her diagnosis. That's the same stage my friend Lisa, about whom I've written, was diagnosed. It's a very tough road ahead. Is she a friend?

    Great news on you HgbA1C. Mine was in the 6.4 range, and then the last 2 times, from weightloss and exercise, was below 6. Talk about a non-scale victory! Sounds like you're doing really well with that.

    Good luck with working out the situation with Dave. And you're darn right that you can write about whatever you want on your blog. I sure do that! Take care -

  2. Of course you can write about it! I'm coming to terms with that myself. I'm allowed to write about what I feel because it affects my weight loss the blog is about me..and I am more than my weight.

    Thanks for commenting on my blog today. I really just needed to hear that from someone else. So again Thank you.

  3. That is dealing with a lot of different things, you can handle it ok, I think. By the way it's Your blog, do whatever you want with it!


  4. I feel the same! It's your blog and you should write whatever you want to write about. I certainly do, too. I feel if someone is looking to me for give weight loss advice they're looking in the wrong place or I wouldn't weigh 300 pounds. I talk about any and everything!

    I'm sorry to hear about your friend. There's really not much you can say. It's a sad situation. Just let her know you're there for her!

  5. bah! weightl loss is as much about you as about what you eat.

    I hope things work out for you in the lest stressful way possible!!!

    Be strong!

  6. I'm glad that your blood work is looking good! And I think that your blog is fantastic, you deserve to write about what is important to you. :)

  7. Everything that happens in your life affects your weight gains/loss/maintenance. Write away Katie J! Sometimes it feels good and helps to clear the outlook when you actually write it out.

  8. I'm so sorry to hear about Debbie's diagnosis. That is so hard to comprehend that you only have "x" number of days.

    I hope the transition from Dave goes smoothly. Change is hard but you have to do what is right for you. Take care of yourself and try to drink some water in between those cocktails.

    Merry Merry!

  9. I am sorry to hear of your friend, Debbie. That is hard. All's you can do is be there. A positive attitude is the greatest weapon in the fight against cancer. Still, it's tough.

    Glad things are resolved with your mom.

    Do what's right for you. Hang in there. Things get brighter from here. :)

    I like when we all talk about ourselves. There's only so much to be said on weightloss. Then we start repeating ourselves. :)

  10. Hi Katie,

    I am so sorry to hear about your friend Debbie. Lung cancer is really hard. My mom passed away from lung cancer 10 years ago. The best advice I can give you is to be there for her, however she needs you.

    It sounds like it was a pretty challenging weekend. I admire you for figuring out that it isn't going to work out to have Dave living with you. It is hard now, but is going to be easier that dealing with it after he moves in.

    I hope you can start using the pool at the senior center soon. It sounds like a really great thing to have right across the street.

    Take care of yourself. You have had a really powerful year. Blog about what you need to...our life totally affects our weight. I am proud of you and your weight loss! xoxo

  11. Hello Katie,

    So sorry you're having a tough time with Dave. Break-ups are hard---given the holidays and all... it can't be an easy. You have to do what is right for you...

    What terrible news about your friend Debbie. Lung cancer is a tough battle. I'm sure you'll be there in any way you can for your friend.

    Hang in there okay. Paula

  12. So sorry about Debbie - that is rough. I wonder if hearing about her diagnosis was the impetus to get you to decide to break it off with Dave...realizing how life is short, we never know how much time we really have, and why stay with someone we aren't happy with? Any case, I'm glad Dave knows your true feelings now. Bet you feel a lot better between that and finally seeing your mother!

  13. I'm sorry that all this is going on at a time that's already extremely stressful...

    Post about whatever you need to - if posts were just about diet and exercise they'd soon get pretty boring! It's nice to get to know the person behind the blog.

    Hope you're ok... xxxx

  14. Isn't it odd that bad news comes at a difficult time- then more stuff comes your way. You are doing really well so hang on in there but please do not skip and more meals you need fuel to get through it all.

    I'm so sorry to hear news about Debbie. There's not a lot you can say to someone in that position, other than be there for them to make their time more pleasant and as normal as possible.

    I'm sorry about Dave too but you do have a need to be good to yourself. We do not need to be bound to some people, but all breaks are tough. Hugs for you at a difficult time.

    Good news about the additional exercise planned. I expect a full report as and when!

  15. Hi Katie. Glad it went OK with your mum.

    Sorry to hear about Debbie. It puts everything into perspective to hear news like that.

    I think it was you who ended it with Dave without saying it, by not showing up. That makes it less confrontational for you as it makes him think that breaking up is his decision. Maybe for the type of person he is that's the best way to do it? I don't know. It's clear your heart just isn't in that relationship anymore.

    Bearfriend xx

  16. I am so sorry for all you have gong on right now.

  17. I'm happy things went well with your mom, sorry about your friend....this is your blog...I too dont always write about weightloss as my blog didnt start off as one...Just be Katie...beautiful Katie...


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