Thursday, November 11, 2010


I did not go see my mom. My nose was dripping madly and I basically did not want to deal with going over there. I feel like a L-O-S-E-R for cancelling on her but I will get over it. Had Chinese food for dinner at my neighbors. I used a small plate and did not over do it. One of the 1st times I did not completely gorge on it so that was good. The bad part is how do you enter that into the bodybugg? LOL!

I have been getting some extra male attention lately and it feels pretty darn good. Especially in light of what has been going on with Dave lately. I was getting a complex that I was no longer an attractive/desirable person. Part of it I believe is my self-confidence is slowly increasing and I am holding my head higher. I think I am more approachable. Back in the depths of despair when I was at my heaviest, I could barely look anybody in the eyes so I think people backed off but now they look at me differently and actually approach me. I am getting better at accepting compliments too. I am making a diligent effort not to reply with a snarky put down of myself. Some habits are hard to break...

Please take a moment this Veterans Day to think about the sacrifices made by the members of the Armed Forces both living and passed. My dad was a  Korean War veteran who was disabled (paraplegic) due to a gunshot wound.  He passed away in 1999 and is buried in the Garden of Honor at the Los Gatos Cemetery near my mom's house. Until next time...


  1. Hope you're doing better!
    I have a hard time accepting compliments as well. I just don't see what other people see. Do you feel like that, too?

  2. To me, it's both nice and unnerving to get "new" male attention - glad you are enjoying it!

  3. I agree with Shelly about the attention. My daughter is teaching her kids to say thank you when someone tells them they're cute. I have paid attention and just say the same thing.

    Love that we can look people in the eyes now!

  4. Glad you're getting some deserved attention. I too use to have a hard time looking people in the eye still do at times.


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