Last night I binged. It was on healthier stuff but it was a straight up binge. Let me back track a little… Dave and I had tacos for dinner (yes he is still around) and when he left I was snacking on some almonds. Then there were cashews, cereal and then saltines. Well, when he came back his first comment was “You are still eating?” Then it was “Are you sure you need to have that? Are you doing this because of me?” If I was to dissect it, I would say he is the majority of the reason. I just don’t know how to get him to go elsewhere. I guess I am going to have to pick a fight or something ugly but I have been having a lot of anxiety about it.
Then there is my mom situation. She emailed me last night and was all in a panic because she needed to make a doctors appt. It is a routine follow up appt with her PCP. It is not urgent but she was flustered about making it and worrying about how she will get there and everything. I called her this morning to talk to her about it and she said she was not awake enough to deal with it. It is a red flag to me that something so routine has her flustered. I am really worried and I am very close to reaching out to my brother and asking him for some assistance in this situation. She might be more responsive to him. Hard to say… He will be here on Aug. 17th for another visit with his family AND the dogs for sure this time.
Today, I am going to get my brows threaded. I am going to attempt to go there on my lunch hour and come back. It is up the street from our old office. There aren’t too many places that do threading in the area which is surprising to me since the area I live in is so culturally diverse but Rosy is really good and I will travel to see her regardless of where she is.
I figured out how to get to the gym from my new location. It is two exits away and only 1.25 miles. As I pass it on the freeway, I see a bazillion cars out in front but I will just have to deal. I still am contemplating going there in the morning BEFORE work and getting ready there. It will be major adjustment but I think it is doable. I have been going to bed early and waking up around 5:15 a.m. every day so if I just got my sh*t together, I could do it.
Sorry it is such a dismal post, it just is my reality right now… Until next time…