Flaking Out

I am in a better head space today. Amazing what a good night of sleep will do for you. I felt like I was in a fog all day yesterday. If you have been here for any amount of time, you can see my dysfunctional patterns. I have grandiose plans to do all sorts of wonderful things and then when it comes down to it, I lack implementation. I do acknowledge that I do that so that is the first step. I need to retrain my brain to follow through on what I set out to do. For example, buying the Personal Training, setting up the appointment and then canceling before I am supposed to go. WTH?!?! I was looking forward to it and then I chickened out. I will call and schedule something for next week but sheesh!

Last night I got home from work and basically grazed until I went to sleep. I have not gone grocery shopping for awhile so I was just eating what was available like cereal, yogurt, cheese and crackers. Not a sustainable dinner for sure. I am going to go tonight FOR SURE. I really do miss being able to cook for someone but that is no reason not to prepare decent meals for myself. It's not as if I don't have the time to do it. I am worth it.

Have you ever seen the show on A&E called Intervention? It is a pretty heavy duty show but I do enjoy it. The other day, there was a young lady who was a meth addict and while she was going through rehab, there was a message written on a whiteboard that said "You are not defined by your mistakes" That statement has stuck in my head ever since. I am really trying to let go of my past transgressions and just focus on my future and I keep repeating that statement to myself. It seems to be working so far. Until next time...



P.S. I was tagged in a post from Leigh and will post my response on Saturday :-)