Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Apprehensive and Anxious

Had a lazy evening due to my over-imbibing on Sunday. I had a salad for dinner and was in bed by 9:00 p.m. I was so tired when I went to bed that I fell asleep without putting the CPAP on. As much as I hate that *&$%@# thing, it really does help me sleep better. They do have different designs now that are not so strappy and I really should check into it. The strap marks are there sometimes until noon!

I have been feeling a bit of anxiety lately. I think with the changes that have been happening in my life that it is just part of the process. Also, it has been a week or two since I talked to my mom. In the past, I shoved those feelings down with food and now I am dealing with them and it ain't easy.

June has always been a celebratory month in my family. First Father's Day, then my parents wedding Anniversary which is today.  They would have been married 60 years today if my dad was alive. Thursday is my birthday and then my folks were born on the same day three years apart which is June 30th. I am not feeling celebratory at all. In fact, I don't even have plans for my birthday. I am working that day but I am taking Friday off. The Blinky's (Memorial) Golf Tournament is on Saturday and Danielle needs some help with prizes and food prep etc. so I took the day off. I will get a much needed pedi on Friday morning. I will not be drinking this weekend. I will just take it one day at a time and I will get through it. Until next time...

P.S. Susan, I have not forgotten about you!


  1. Good for you for just taking care of you. I know what you mean when it comes to celebrating. I am the celebrating fool who doesn't know when to stop. Then the next several days I am paying for it all.

    I wish you a very happy birthday, a great day for you to enjoy and wishing each day better than the one before..

  2. I hope you end up doing something special for your birthday...not every year has to be a huge shindig, but hey - it's the day to celebrate YOU!


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