Coming Clean

Holy Moley! It's hard to believe that it has been almost three months since I did a blog post! Honestly, it's been a rough 3 months. I actually gained 10 lbs. so I am at 249. I have been eating junk food and really not giving a crap about anything and it showed on the scale fo sho. It could have been worse and I am glad that I snapped out of it before it did.

I do suffer from depression and the added isolation of being here in AZ without much social interaction has fueled that. While I know I can handle tough things and things will get better, it was a rough go there for a bit. After awhile, I realized that no one is going to help me get out of this situation but ME. For me, one of the main issues is self worth. I need to remember that I matter and I am worth it. Soooooo.... I slowly but surely have been putting one foot in front of the other and trying to get things accomplished.

I went to the dentist which I had put off for way too long and still have a few more appts. to go. I went to the eye doctor and got new glasses. I have made an appt. to see a therapist too. I also got a new PCP and I like him. He actually prescribed Topamax which is usually prescribed for migraines or epilepsy which I don't have but apparently it also helps with satiety or feeling full. I have only been taking it for a week so it will be interesting to see if it helps.

I started taking Zumba classes at the local gym and today I signed up for a ton of Personal Training. I need to be accountable and think it will really help. Her name is Jessica and I like her. She has been heavy in her lifetime so she knows the struggle. We will be meeting twice a week on Tuesdays and Thursdays and then I will fill in the other days with classes. Not only is it good physically, its good socially and people have been really nice.

I do plan on posting here more. When I was steadily losing, I was posting here so I would like to go back to doing that.

Until next time...