I've Lost 100 lbs!!!

It is official! I have lost 100 lbs!!! I never thought I'd see the day! I started my blog in 2009 weighing 315 lbs. and I am down to 215. I can actually see being under 200 lbs. now! I am shocked and so happy about it! Onderland here I come. I have not been this low since my 20s. Once I was over 200 lbs. I kinda lost hope and faith in myself and the rest is history...

I don't know how much I have talked about depression here on my blog. I have suffered from depression for years and have tried various medications to help me and it seems to go up and down. After taking meds for awhile, they seem to lose their effectiveness and then I switch to another one in hopes that it will help. I have also done talk therapy which helps but it always seems like an uphill battle.  Since discovering details about my bio family It is really no surprise that I suffer from depression. Both bio parents had addiction and depression issues.I am also on a job hunt which is depressing too. It's hard to sell yourself when you don't really feel you're worthy or capable. I try to catch myself when I start with the negative thoughts but it ain't easy. Sometimes it takes all that I have to get out of bed and get dressed and showered. I know this is something I will have to deal with for the rest of my life so I will just keep pushing forward but it is just tough sometimes. What other option do I have???

Hope all is well with my readers if there are any left!?!?

Until next time...