Friday, January 8, 2016

Friday Photos

Here are some photos that I wanted to share:


Sleepy Kitters


Dressed Up!

Dressed Up again?

Smoochie Poochie Face

I don't like this tie MOM!

Where we goin?
Santa's Baby
Scoping out the neighbors
My daily visitor

Have a great weekend! Until next time...


Thursday, January 7, 2016

My Hummingbird Story

I have always loved birds. Especially Hummingbirds. Birds have significance also because my dad's nickname was Eagle and he loved the St. Louis Cardinals so my mom decorated with them year round. When my mom was alive, I mentioned to her that after she passes that I would go see a psychic medium and our code word would be "Birds" so that I knew it was really her. She agreed.

About 3 months after my mom passed, I did in fact go to a Medium. A few minutes into the reading, LeAnne said "All of as sudden I see a bunch of birds!" You can't ask for more proof then that eh? I actually have that reading recorded. It was a wonderful experience and everything she said was spot on. Amazing really! Since the day my mother passed (July 18, 2013) I have seen a hummingbird EVERY DAY. Both in California and here in Arizona. Arizona is actually in the migration path for four different kinds of hummingbirds. When I landscaped my yard, I had hummingbird friendly trees and plants put in and even got a screen door with hummingbirds. I also did a tattoo with a hummingbird.


Wednesday, January 6, 2016

I'm Back!

Thanks LuckyMama for the check in! I was actually thinking about blogging in general and if it is still relevant and I decided to keep blogging even though my posts have been super sparse.

I am mentally feeling much better. I have been getting out every day and going to the local dog park. It is fun and its good for both of us.

Finished all my dental appts and now I just need to go in for regular cleanings. Uggghhhh that was a pain but I am glad it is over and money well spent.

I did go to the gym a few times with the personal trainer but the arthritis in my knee is really acting up. I did get a cortisone shot in it a month or so ago and it is still painful. I totally do NOT want to have knee surgery. Whatever I can do to avoid it! Ugghhhhhh! I have been going on daily walks with Sophie but even that is painful.

That's it for now... I will be back soon!

Until next time...


Thursday, August 27, 2015

Coming Clean

Holy Moley! It's hard to believe that it has been almost three months since I did a blog post! Honestly, it's been a rough 3 months. I actually gained 10 lbs. so I am at 249. I have been eating junk food and really not giving a crap about anything and it showed on the scale fo sho. It could have been worse and I am glad that I snapped out of it before it did.

I do suffer from depression and the added isolation of being here in AZ without much social interaction has fueled that. While I know I can handle tough things and things will get better, it was a rough go there for a bit. After awhile, I realized that no one is going to help me get out of this situation but ME. For me, one of the main issues is self worth. I need to remember that I matter and I am worth it. Soooooo.... I slowly but surely have been putting one foot in front of the other and trying to get things accomplished.

I went to the dentist which I had put off for way too long and still have a few more appts. to go. I went to the eye doctor and got new glasses. I have made an appt. to see a therapist too. I also got a new PCP and I like him. He actually prescribed Topamax which is usually prescribed for migraines or epilepsy which I don't have but apparently it also helps with satiety or feeling full. I have only been taking it for a week so it will be interesting to see if it helps.

I started taking Zumba classes at the local gym and today I signed up for a ton of Personal Training. I need to be accountable and think it will really help. Her name is Jessica and I like her. She has been heavy in her lifetime so she knows the struggle. We will be meeting twice a week on Tuesdays and Thursdays and then I will fill in the other days with classes. Not only is it good physically, its good socially and people have been really nice.

I do plan on posting here more. When I was steadily losing, I was posting here so I would like to go back to doing that.

Until next time...


Friday, June 5, 2015

Don't Quit!

Don't Quit!

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and its turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When they might have won, had they stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup; 
And he learned too late when the night came down, 
How close he was to the golden crown. 

Success is failure turned inside out 
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt 
And you never can tell how close you are, 
It may be near when it seems so far; 
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit! 

Thursday, June 4, 2015

June Baby!

Holy crap its June already! Shheeesshhhh! Where did the time go.

Still hovering at 240. Stupid really, I know what I need to do.

I am going to be 49 years old on the 21st (Holy Shit!) I would like to at least be in Onderland by my 50th. That is a very attainable goal if I actually got off my ass. If I shot for the moon, I'd like to get to goal and then get skin removal surgery but we will see how it goes.

One thing I will say is I have been doing a lot of emotional work and it is downright draining. Healing from loss does take time and I am glad to be able to have the resources to help me. I know they would want me to be happy and not wallowing in sorrow.

Otherwise, things are getting better. I am almost finished unpacking boxes and I have actually had someone helping me so that makes a big difference.

Until next time...


Monday, April 27, 2015

Finally Went!

I finally went to the gym last Tuesday. I survived. I honestly was about to cry when I was checking in but I managed to keep my cool. I did 25 minutes on the treadmill. What I now need to do is have them show me the equipment and weight area. I am still considering doing Personal Training. My preference is someone who has had a weight struggle at one point in their lifetime. I feel like they can identify more with what your dealing with.

Counseling seems to be helping. The book The Grief Recovery Handbook is really helping. It's work but I think it is time well spent. Honestly, I think we need to incorporate this kind of coping tool in our youth's curriculum. There are all different types of loss and I think it would make such a difference if we knew some coping tools in advance. Divorce, Loss of job, broken friendships, its all grief.

My brother, his wife and their two Biewer Yorkshire Terriers are coming for a visit in two weeks. This is a sample pic of what they look like. They have more of a black and white coloring to them.

 Poor Bogey. It will only be for a few days but three dogs and one ditty is not fair.

Eating has been bad. I am hovering at 240. Today is a new day and a new opportunity for changed behavior.

Until next time...