Saturday, July 30, 2011

P!nk - F**kin' Perfect



I really enjoy this song. Pardon the profanity but...

Friday, July 29, 2011

Crash and Burn

We made it to Friday! Wahoo! What a week this has been! I survived it and that is the highlight. I have a tendency to agonize over things and it is unnecessary most of the time. For example, the new commute. I was freaking out thinking that I would have to leave way earlier and be stuck in traffic and I would not be able to find it… well none of that happened. It was rather easy once I did it. The funny thing is – I really try to have a carefree attitude but when confronted with change or something new I freeze. Definitely something to work on...

The construction is still happening and I won’t be able to move into my new workspace until the latter part of next week. Today, my coworkers finally joined me in the new building. They are setting up their workspaces today. We actually got to dress casual today which NEVER happens so it is a treat. I don’t have any jeans that fit so I am just wearing casual pants and my Crocs.

I never made it to my mom’s yesterday. I bailed out on her at the last minute. I was afraid with my mood and stress level that it was not a good mix. I will go over there tomorrow and take care of a few things for her. Hopefully, we can have a calm and productive discussion about her current situation. I have mentioned someone coming in to check on her but that did not go over well with her. If my brother suggests it, then maybe she will go for it. BIG sigh! Otherwise I plan to get some “Katie” time in so I can recharge and forge ahead. Until next time…

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Chin Up

Well as I said I would do, here are my numbers for yesterday. I ate some popcorn in the evening which put me over my goal but not too too bad. I need to ditch popcorn and peanut butter for an extended period of time. I just can't control myself with eating either one of them right now so it will work better if I abstain completely. Out of sight - out of mind right?

I did not get on Phoebe last night. I was tired and crabby and probably should have but I didn't make it happen. The last few nights I have been going to bed rather early (by 9:00 p.m.) so I have plenty of time in the morning to get ready and prepare for the day with coffee, making my lunch, etc. I have now proven to myself that I can get up that early and function. I am not a particularly cheerful person in the morning but if I have had enough sleep then I do okay as long as coffee is in the mix =)

Tonight, I need to go to my mom's house to pay a bill for her. We are both struggling with the adjustments that her vision loss has presented. I am really trying to be patient and understanding of her situation but my nerves are already tested with everything else going on. I snapped at her yesterday and felt bad about it. My intention is just to go to her house, pay the bill and go straight home. My brother and his family and DOGS are coming in a few weeks so I plan on talking to my brother about her situation. Maybe he can get through to her better then I can. Until next time...

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Sense of Humor

I am blogging from my phone this morning because I am in a workroom in our new building. The final inspections have not been done so "technically" I am not supposed to be here. The commute was fine and I got here in plenty of time. I am just not a fan of freeways per say but I managed just fine. i will try some alternate ways in the next few days.

My mom has always said "We must always maintain our sense of humor" and I think she's right. Even in the most dire situation there can be humor. I think that is what is keeping me sane with ALL the changes I have been going through lately. Speaking of, I have a post brewing in my head about facing some new challenges.

It looks like there is a track to walk at the campus next door and also the gym is 1.25 miles from here so I have NO EXCUSES to not get some exercise. I think tonight I will get on Phoebe and go for a ride. Until next time...

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Trackin Slackin

How are you guys this morning? I am doing pretty good. This is the last day in our "old" office and I am feeling rather melancholy about it. I have worked here for about 7 years and our office was located in a very central location. Easy freeway access, lots of shopping including Whole Foods, Kohl's and Trader Joe's around the corner. The "new" location is in an industrial area in San Jose and there is not much out there. I know we will make do and I am very happy to be employed but change is inevitable right?

I have been slackin on my trackin and I feel that it is one of the reasons I am not making more headway with my WL. When I was most successful was when I was using my BB daily and logging and posting my numbers. I think I need to get back to that. Is it a pain in the ass? Sometimes, it is but it has proven to be successful so I am going to back to doing that. So, starting tomorrow, I will be posting my numbers again on my daily posts.

One last thing, I was playing my Wii Resort game and played a game of basketball and I beat my previous record and got 23/25 shots! It felt great to beat my previous score and they give you bonuses for achieving certain levels so it just makes me happy :-) Until next time...

Monday, July 25, 2011

Slimmer This Summer - Week 7 Results

Here are my stats for the Challenge:

Weight: I stayed the same. 248
Water Consumption: I actually did pretty good with water this week.
Activities: I did not try a new class. I did not get 10K per day

Sad but true facts. But, alas this is a new week. We are finishing up with the packing of the office so I will be getting some good activity in today. Good way to kick off the week. This is going to a memorable week fo sho. New commute, new office and clean slate.

Speaking of activity, I put up a calendar on my sidebar for Activity. It is a free calendar and I used it before but had some technical difficulties but I am hoping to start using it again. Jo over at The Tortoise uses hers daily.

Hope you guys had a good weekend! Mine was pretty good - nothing too exciting that I can mention ;-). One thing I did want to ask though is do you guys ever eat anything that you KNOW is going to give you a belly ache or have an adverse reaction and you still eat it? I decided to have a salami sandwich for lunch yesterday and even told the sandwich maker it was my once a year sandwich because it usually upsets my tummy. Well, it did and it was NOT worth getting sick over. Blerghh.... Hope we all have a good week and that everyone did better then I did on the challenge. Until next time...



P.S. I am working on another fun giveaway so stay tuned!

Sunday, July 24, 2011

John Mayer - Heart of Life (Acoustic)



I hate to see you cry lying there in that position
There's things you need to hear
So turn off your tears and listen
Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No it won't all go the way it should
But i know the heart of life is good

You know it's nothing new
Bad news never had good timing
Then the circle of your friends
Will defend the silver lining

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No it won't all go the way it should
But i know the heart of life is good

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
Fear is a friend who's misunderstood
But i know the heart of life is good.
I know it's good.


This is a wonderful song! Hope you like it!

Friday, July 22, 2011

Anonymously Lovely!

We made it to Friday!!! Always glad to see it come but especially today! One of my coworkers has been going through Chemo and Radiation for Melenoma and today was her last treatment! Yay!!! She is one of the sweetest gals and has a really good attitude about the whole thing. I think that makes a world of difference.

Since there have been so many problems with Blogger lately and leaving comments, I decided to open up my blog to anonymous comments. I was very wary based on experiences other bloggers had had with that. Well, yesterday I got an anonymous comment and it was lovely! Here is the comment:
Anonymous said...
That is an AMAZING story!!! The coincidence is STUNNING!!! Another tale of destined coincidence--- My friend Tom was crushed when his wife of 20-some years asked for a divorce. The morning after a horrific argument when he finally agreed to the divorce, he got an email from his high school girlfriend who had been looking for him for years. They'd gone to separate colleges and drifted apart. She'd never stopped loving him and actually named one of her sons after him (never told the father where she got the name!). She was recently divorced herself. The timing was unbelievable! My friend's wife was stunned when suddenly he willingly agreed to everything she asked for. The high school sweethearts are happily living together now! And the ex-wife? She's prowling the dating websites.
Thank you Anon for making me smile and sharing your story!

As for the weekend, Saturday I am spending some time with my mom helping her with bills and stuff. Hopefully, it won't take all day. My other plans are to swim, gym and organize. Maybe I will be able to see Danielle on Sunday. It's been forever since we hung out. Until next time...

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Ageless Love

Had a pretty good day yesterday. I met up with my family as planned. Had Mexican food with my friend Tommy for dinner and then went home and read for awhile and crashed.

At lunch yesterday, my cousins invited their neighbors, Masa and Betty to join us. What a great story they had to tell!! They are 90 years old and knew each other in elementary school in Maui. Masa sat behind Betty and used to pull her hair and tease her like grade school boys do. They remained friends and they dated for a short time in high school. Well after high school he was drafted to WWII and went off to war. He came back and married another woman and had children 3 daughters with her. They lived out there lives together until his wife passed away.  He then decided to move to Las Vegas and bought a home in a retirement community off a golf course. Well, guess who also bought a home off the golf course... Betty!! She also had been married and had two sons. Her husband had passed away a few years earlier as well. It had been almost 60 years since they had seen each other and now are living together next door to my cousins. I just loved hearing their story and they look SO cute and happy together. Gives me hope that love is timeless. I believe there is a reason why I heard that story yesterday but I will elaborate more another day.

Today we are packing up the office, the guys rescheduled for today.  I have comfy clothes on so I can get down and dirty - LOL! Until next time...


Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Whirlwind Wednesday

Had a decent night last night. Went to get the facial as planned which was wonderful. I just love the massage you get while getting the facial done. I scheduled my next appt. for August 18th. I wrote it down this time and put it here so I won't forget. I really think that the facials have improved my skin. I have been taking more pictures of my face and I can see the difference. I have rosacea and it has really helped reduce the redness. I just read that Irish and Northern European women are more likely to have it. Well, that makes a whole lot of sense now doesn't it... Dinner was pasta and a salad with garlic bread.

Today at lunchtime, I am meeting my extended family for my cousin's birthday. This will be the last time that I can meet them during the day since we are moving our office next week. Of course I can still meet with them on the weekends but it has been nice to be able to pop over to CoCo’s and meet with them and then come back to work.  We are going to be packing up the office today actually. Our maintenance guys are coming over to help us. They will help with the common areas like the kitchen, supply room, library etc. At least I will get some calories burned packing up boxes. Until next time...

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Tuesday Tidbits

Had a pretty uneventful evening. Dinner was steak sandwiches and green beans and potatoes. I was still tired from the weekend so I decided to go to bed early and was asleep by 8:30 p.m. after starting a new book on my Kindle called Faking It I am still loving my Kindle and this is my 4th book since I got it. I had not read 4 books in all of last year so that makes me happy.

Going to get a facial tonight at Planet Beach. This is the one I am making up since I had a low blood sugar moment. I had quite a bit of trouble trying to make an appt. for my services that I bought through Living Social and eventually spoke to the shop owner who extended another full day of services for me. Yipee! I am one of those people who actually DO provide companies with feedback when they do something whether it was right or wrong. Most people don't take the time to do it or they will just not go back but with my Marketing background, I just feel impelled to say something. 9/10 times it works and I usually get some kind of compensation for it. Until next time...

Monday, July 18, 2011

Slimmer This Summer - Week 6 Results

Here are my stats for the Challenge:


Weight: I lost another lb so I am at 248.
Water Consumption: I actually did pretty good with water this week.
Activities: I did not try a new class. I did not get 10K per day

How was your weekend? Hope you had a good one! Mine was good for the most part.
I did not go to Sacramento until Saturday morning. I just felt it would work better for me if I got some rest and took off early Saturday morning.  I finished the Hunger Games and got some extra Zzzzz’s. Saturday I took off about 9 and enjoyed the road. I had my iPod blasting and I was cruuuuuuuuising. I ended up getting lost (not unusual) but it was not too bad. Candace has a cute little apt. and is right by the pool.  We went to the Wal-Mart Super Center and I bought her some necessities for her apt like cleaning supplies and a trash can. I totally dig the Super Wal-Mart! I wish we had one in the nearby vicinity. When our office moves, we will be relatively close to Wal-Mart which will be nice. We made a nice dinner and chatted away… it was nice to get to spend time with her.  I ended up leaving around 1:00 p.m. on Sunday and my plan was to go to my mom’s and take her grocery shopping.  Well, after a half dozen emails back and forth, she decided to ask my 86 year old Aunt to take her instead. She is beginning to concern me more and more but that is another post for another day.

Things on the home front are pretty sketchy as you can imagine.  Dave had a few drinks after his umpiring yesterday and came home around 8:45 p.m.  I can always tell when he has been drinking by his animated behavior.  Well, I may have pushed him over the edge when I got a call from my friend around 10:00 p.m. saying he wanted to meet up with me. I was already in bed when he called but I wanted to see him so I got up, got dressed and went. Dave was totally flabbergasted that I was leaving. I felt a little guilty but I also thought that being up front about it is a whole lot better then trying to sneak around you know what I mean? He was gone when I got back – I assume he want to go drink some more. He was there when I woke up this morning and he reeked like booze. Blechhh…

Eating was pretty good overall until last night. I decided to make some popcorn after 9:00 p.m.(rule breaker!) and wolfed it down.  I think I need to either get single serving packs or avoid it for awhile. I am also obsessed with peanut butter lately. I am a super chunk kinda gal. Probably need to avoid that for a bit also.

Hoping to make it a good week.  This snail pace of losing can be so frustrating  but I have not been diligent about exercising so I am grateful to have lost this week.Until next time...

Friday, July 15, 2011

Gone Fishin'


I am taking the day off from work and from my blog. Have a healthy and happy weekend!


Thursday, July 14, 2011

Feeling Blue

How are you guys doing today? I am doing much better. Now that the burden of holding in all that pent up emotion has subsided some, I can actually focus on what needs to be done. Once again, I can't thank you guys enough for your reaching out to me with your words of encouragement and support.

Managed to have a decent dinner which was a Garlic and Herb Chicken breast and Broccoli and rice.  I just love the convenience of the Green Giant Steamers. They are handy when you are trying to make a quick healthy meal.  I even got in a brief walk around the block after dinner.

As I mentioned the other day, we went shopping in downtown LG on Sunday and I bought a bracelet and earrings. Here are pictures of them as promised:
Turquoise and Carnelian bracelet



Blue Glass Earrings
The bracelet is made from Turquoise and Carnelian. I had never heard of Carnelian before. Apparently it is one of the oldest gemstones available. It was used in Roman times for jewelery as well as being used for seal rings for imprinting a seal on letters or important documents (hot wax does not stick to carnelian). It is also mentioned in the bible. Gotta love Google eh? Who knew? All I knew is that the colors caught my eye and I wanted it. I should have a jewelery fashion Friday! I have been making a diligent effort to accessorize more and would love your feedback so maybe I will do that. What do you think? It is an NSV for me to be able to buy bracelets because there was definitely a time when they did not fit my wrists. Until next time...


Wednesday, July 13, 2011

The Ax Has Fallen

This morning, the cards were put on the table. It is ALL out now. I still don't know how it is going to roll out but I did it. I stood up for myself and probably made one of the hardest decisions I have ever made but I have to stand behind it. I can't thank all of you enough for your support during this process. It means a lot that you all took the time to comment and email me privately etc. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

Eating has just been all over the place. I know I need to eat for nutrition but I am not planning so it is going awry. Last night was not too bad. I had some Lean Cuisine Egg rolls and Edamame but then got into the peanut butter and jelly.  I caught myself before I did too much damage. I need to go to the store tonight and get some groceries. Prepare, prepare, prepare... Exercise has been virtually not existent too which needs to change. I feel so much better when I am done but it is getting my fat ass out there... Maybe a bike ride would be good. Until next time...

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Summer Plans & Stuff

Katie J 2011
Katie J - 2009 (Alaska Cruise)
I was poking around on my computer and found an old pic from my first Alaska Cruise and comparing it to my most recent pic from my birthday at the Elephant Bar. I can really see a difference in my face. I also know I have changed quite a bit because that top I wore on the cruise got too big for me so I sent it to someone since I only wore it a time or two. Made me feel like I have made progress and why people really notice it in my face now.

When I planned my summer plans back in the spring time, I had grandiose plans of either going to Health and Fitness Bloggers in Boulder, CO or to BlogHer in San Diego.  I will not be going to either conference. Mainly because my life is in transition right now and it would be irresponsible of me to go.  My new plan is to go to FitBloggin12. It fits in better with the niche I am in with my blog and at least I will “know” a few bloggers there. With both the previously mentioned conferences, I really only knew one or two people that were going.

I am going to be going to Sacramento this weekend to visit my niece Candace. It is only an hour and a half drive from home. Just far enough to get the heck out of dodge for awhile. I haven’t mentioned this to my mom so it should be interesting to see how it unfolds. She upset with me because I told her I would not take her to the grocery store Sunday. My bro was still here so he took her but she sent me a nasty email saying she won’t be asking me to take her again. I responded by saying “Sorry you feel that way” and left it at that. Oh joy huh?

In late August or early September, I plan on visiting my childhood friend, Kari and her family. I have not seen her in over 10 years! It will be nice to see her for sure and I just need to get my life on the home front settled before I go. Oh, and pay off a few credit cards LOL! Either way, it is almost always nice down in SoCal so even if it delayed, it will still be nice.

This being in limbo stuff just blows. Regardless of how you look at the situation it sucks. Even though Dave is leaving and we are breaking things off he was my friend and it is hard as hell to think of not having him around. I will survive this. I have survived worse things and came through it okay.  Being submersed in the situation is pretty heartbreaking let me tell you. Sorry this post is not very cheerful. I just need something to look forward to. Until next time…



P.S. Holy crap, I have 498 followers!!

Monday, July 11, 2011

Slimmer This Summer - Week 5 Results

Here are my stats for the Challenge:

Weight: I lost 1 lb so I am at 249. <-- This is like watching paint dry!
Water Consumption: I actually did better with my water this week. Being hot helps!
Activities: I did not try a new class. I did not get 10K per day

Not a stellar week for the challenge but there is hope! I have not been very active and therefore the scale is reflecting that. Now that all the birthdays and family visits are over for awhile, I can focus on my WL again.

I had one of THE best weekends I have had in a long time! We went to Outback on Friday to celebrate my brother's 50th birthday. I had the Ahi and salad as planned but I also had to Lemon Drops that were divine! I also met up with an old friend from middle school and it was great to see him!  I want to elaborate but I also do not want to incriminate so I will leave it at that for now.  Saturday we met up with extended family for brunch and then went back to Betty's (my mom) to swim. It was rather cool so it took us awhile to get in. I did not put sunscreen on (Doh!) so I have some extra color. Yesterday, we went to downtown Los Gatos and had breakfast and walked around and shopped. I got some earrings and a cute bracelet and I will take pictures for you Shelley. Yesterday afternoon, I met up with my old friend again and we went to Sanborn Park and walked and talked. It was a perfect day for it.  Funny, how after all this time *cough 30 years cough* that we still get along like we did when we were young. All I can say is that it has been a wonderful diversion for dealing with my current situation on the homefront.

Speaking of, I need to make some major decisions in that regard. The lease is coming up for renewal and I want to renew it just for me. When I originally applied for the apartment it was in my name only so Dave was an add on. I will call the Property Manager sometime today and get that ball rolling. I need to come up with a time line for Dave to be out too. Ugghhhh, that is the hard part - I don't want to be in charge of that but I just have to buck up and deal. Avoiding it is what I have been doing for the last year or so - so I need to stand up for myself. It is just a tough situation all the way around. Until next time...



P.S. You can get a Free Slurpee at 7-11 today!

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Rihanna - Fading Away



This is my new favorite song! My "theme" song if you will...

Friday, July 8, 2011

Swiftly and Painlessly

Thank you for ALL your support on yesterdays post. I know that bottom line, it is up to us what happens but it is also nice to have my feelings validated and affirmed. I don’t know about you guys but I seem to question my own judgment all the time. I have a post brewing on this topic.

The good news for yesterday was that I got out of going to see my family for dinner last night. They asked if I wanted to be included in the plans and I gracefully declined. I said I had not slept well Wednesday night which is true. I went to sleep around 11:00 p.m. after arguing with Dave and was up at 5:00 a.m. Let them enjoy each others company. That is really why they are here; to spend time with my mom. I am just the tag along.

I tried to talk to Dave some more about our situation. I really think there is no reconciliation possible which is sad but living in an unhappy situation will only hurt the both of us more if we continue down this path. He can rent a room for $300-$500 and be covered as for a living space. Of course his response when I asked him what he will do he said he will live in his car and die. Lovely… but in reality it should not be my responsibility right? I would allow him to stay another month or even two to get living arrangements lined up. I am not cruel but I have to stop the madness at some point.

My eating has been spotty. Yesterday, I had some string cheese for breakfast and a Jr. Bacon cheeseburger from Wendy’s for lunch. It was 310 cals so it was not the worst thing to eat but not very nutritious obviously. It was only the 3rd time I have had a fast food hamburger in 2+ years. It actually tasted pretty good believe it or not. I know I need to eat but the anxiety I have been feeling is making me not hungry. I think I need to pick up some Ensure/Glucerna so I can get nutrients in my body. I don’t want to let my immunities get low and get sick.

Today, my brother Bob turns 50. We will be going to the Outback (even though I suggested elsewhere) for dinner to celebrate. I will most likely have the Ahi and a salad like I did last time. Either way I will try to plan accordingly.

Saturday we will be meeting our extended family for brunch then going back to my mom’s to swim. Yes, my mom has a pool… I don’t think in all the time I have been blogging have I mentioned that because we NEVER use it. I have suggested it but she doesn’t want to and since she is the boss, well… it does not get used. I could give a rat’s ass about what I look like in my suit in front of them btw. Then Sunday, they will be flying home in the afternoon. I am freaking thrilled they have a rental car. Going to SJC to shuttle them back and forth was no fun in the past so it makes things easier on me. I am just hoping the weekend goes by swiftly and painlessly. Hope you guys have a great weekend! Until next time…

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Nitty Gritty

* Please note that this post is ranty. There is adult content as well*

I have been avoiding writing this post for a long time but after thinking long and hard about it, I decided to put this out there. Hopefully, there won’t be too much backlash from it. Part of my resistance was the fact that I have almost 493 followers (yikes!) and approximately 250 readers per day. When I initially started my blog, I did not know what a wonderful community was out there and I am so humbled that you all read my little ditties but there is a part of me that is scared to reveal some inner truths. There are only two people that I know IRL that read my blog so I am hoping it does not backfire. Does that make any sense?? You guys know A LOT more then most people do about me but I have resisted getting too deep about some of my personal relationships. They have definitely affected my WL journey though.

My relationship with Dave is strained at best. We are NOT married by the way. I love him dearly but it is just not enough for me anymore. We have been together for 5 and half years now and we are getting nowhere fast. One of the main issues, which I imagine affects a lot of other relationships, is money. I am the one who works full time. I have been at my job for almost 7 years. The entire time we have been together he has not worked full-time. He does umpire which I admire and love that he has been doing it for so long but it does not pay the bills. He supplements by doing some market research jobs, which I hooked him up with. I put together his resume so he could look for work too but he hasn’t. Do you see a trend here? Just call me Katie the Enabler.

I would like to get married someday. I would like a ring. I don't think it is greedy of me to want these things. If it doesn't happen that will be okay but a gal can dream right? If I invest time and energy into a relationship for over 5 years and I am no closer then I was to start with then how futile is that?

Dave is an Alcoholic. He is in recovery most of the time but has been drinking intermittently but not around me. I can tell the difference in his behavior though. Back in 2009, he was court ordered to enroll in a program and he went through Salvation Army which meant he lived there for 6 months. The agreement when he got out was that he was to commit to his recovery and to get a job so we could split expenses. It has been a year and a half and he still hasn’t done anything. At that time, I was a blond hair away from severing ties with him but I didn’t…hmmmm

My other major bone of contention is our intimacy. For whatever reason, he does not initiate any “activity” and we have only been intimate ONE TIME this year. I have run this one over and over and over in my head. I am 45 years old and still like to be “active” and he is 60 so maybe his idea of “active” and mine are different. I have had other men express their desire to be “active” with me so I guess I am still desirable. I must say though that this has really screwed with my head B-I-G T-I-M-E.

The other deal breaker is his lack of patience and his desire to flee when things get tough. I have stood by him through thick and thin. I helped him bury his mother; I went to classes and supported him when he was in the program. He had no where to go when his family home was sold and he came to live with me but here we are and things have not changed. He did help me intern my bio father but it was nothing by comparison.

Now, I am realistic and know that I am not the easiest person in the world to get along with. I have flaws and admit to them wholeheartedly. I am doing my best to become the woman I was intended to be. Loving myself and coming to terms with the premise that I do DESERVE happiness and have WORTH are part of that. I know there is a lot of room for improvement but I am also proud of what I have accomplished and have plans to do a WHOLE LOT MORE!

Some smaller yet still aggravating facts are that I am the handy person. I am the finance person; I am the computer person etc. in our relationship. He does the housecleaning (vacuuming and dusting) and the laundry. He also does most of the dishes and some of the cooking. While this is wonderful to have someone helping me, it is not the end of the world if I had to do it myself. Let me just say that if I was the one that was home part/most of the day, the house would be cleaner.


I have built up a lot of resentment and that does not help. It sucks when I am getting ready and leaving in the morning and he is talking about his plans for the day which includes the tasks noted above. I told him I would be more then happy to switch places but in all honesty, that wouldn’t work for me. I couldn’t just sit home half the time and do nothing. I would work part-time or volunteer or something. I guess that is what sets us apart and why my resentment continues to grow.

Breaking things off with him is not going to be a walk in the park. When you cohabitate without being married it is like being married. I would say that 90% of the items in our apartment are mine. We did buy a few things together but he has told me in prior discussions/fights that it is all mine. I have been a stable beacon in his life and his family and friends have gotten used to me being around but for whatever reason, I feel like there is a disconnect, like maybe they think we are temporary or something. This is the longest relationship I have ever been and I have never lived with someone this long before so it is going to be interesting to see how it all unfolds. Until next time...

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Wavering Wednesday

Yesterday was a rather uneventful day. I think I was still in a fog from the weekend. Also, I am trying to maintain my sanity in dealing with my family. It is nothing catastrophic but I want to try to keep my mom calm and it is not an easy task as of late.

I will be going there tonight to help her straighten things up and to go to Fish Market.  My brother will be flying in late and getting a rental car which is great. This is actually the first time they will be using a rental vs. my mom's car. They also will not be bringing the puppies :-( I was looking forward to seeing them... guess the airline changed their prices or something. Bummer...

This morning we are having a headmaster's meeting here at our office. I have had 3 different people come up to me and say "Wow, you look great!" and "You have lost a bunch of weight" It felt really nice to hear them say that. I only see them every few months so apparently I have changed. Instead of replying with a self-depreciating comment I just accepted their gracious compliments and said thank you. Times, they are a' changin. Until next time...



P.S. Fat Daddy Rants is back to blogging. Please stop by and say Hi!

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Slimmer This Summer - Week 4 Results

Here are my stats for the Challenge:

Weight: I stayed the same this week (some competitor huh?)
Water Consumption: I failed at water this week.
Activities: I did not try a new class. I did not get 10K per day.

How was your weekend? Hope you all had a good one! It was nice to have a long weekend. The highlight of my weekend was meeting Sally who is Dave's best friends wife. It has been 5 years that Dave and I have been together and I have known Ed but never got to meet his wife because she was a nurse and had the opposite hours I do. It was like meeting an old friend! She was such a pleasure to talk to! She reads my blog *waving hello* and knew that I wanted to go swimming come hell or high water and so she invited us to swim at the neighbors they are house sitting for. I was in there for like two hours! I swam some laps but mostly just jumped around and played.

I had been wanting to make some hummus and decided to finally try it. I used my Magic Bullet blender and added garlic and Italian dressing and it was delish! Dave liked it too so win-win.


My brother, Bob, is coming to visit with his family this week. He will be flying in tomorrow night and his wife, Mia and son, Mike will be coming on Thursday. They will also be bringing their dogs, Spike and Roxie. They are Biewer Yorkshire Terriers. Here is a picture of Spike when he was a baby.



I'm looking forward to seeing my SIL and nephew. My brother, not so much... I am a little miffed at him still.  He is the Golden Boy in my mother's eyes so I could never tell her that I reminded him about her birthday.  I will behave myself and act as if everything is peachy but I still think he is a shmuck. Until next time...



P.S. Hyla made it to Onderland! Go tell her congrats!

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Breakaway - Kelly Clarkson


Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away

[Chorus:]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

[Chorus]

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

Great song!

Saturday, July 2, 2011

L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N.



This is a catchy little tune by Noah and the Whale that I heard recently... Words to live by eh?

Friday, July 1, 2011

Happy July!

Had a good day yesterday. We went to the cemetery and then headed over to Outback.  I ended up ordering the Ahi tuna as my entree and then just eating the salad and a piece of bread. Their bread is soooo good it was hard to resist. I asked my mom if my brother had called and she said no. What a yutz! So when I went across the street to settle in for the night (dog sitting) I called him and said "You need to call your mother, it is her birthday and she is getting ready to go to bed!" which was not entirely true but she does go to bed quite early. He said it was a busy day... well are you too busy to call your mother on her birthday??? He texted me and told me he owes me big. I said yes you do! I just don't understand him sometimes. It was my dad's birthday too so it's not like he doesn't know... whatever... at least my conscience is clear...

Titan (The big Galoot)

Pan Kitty (Miss Elusive)
 Today at lunch time, Dave and I will be going to a funeral for his sister-in-law's mother. It is close by so I will just take an extended lunch hour. Tonight, Dave will come to my dog sitting house and we will be watching movies. I have Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1 and The Chronicles of Narnia: Voyage of the Dawn Treader. As for the weekend, I will be going to see Larry Crowne with my mom and helping her clean up her kitchen counter and table tomorrow. My brother and his family will be visiting next week (My brother is turning 50!) so I want to get things cleared off. I WILL BE GOING SWIMMING come hell or high water!!! Hope you have a safe and sane 4th of July. I post my update for the STS challenge on Monday. Until next time...



P.S. Have you seen C at the Evolution of C? Go check out her blog!
P.S.S. This is my 800th post!